And I guess that's why I finally flat out refused to go to church any longer at 13---and can proudly say that I'm the only one in my immediate family who wasn't "confirmed" as a Christian!

And why I dropped out of high school at 17, even though I could have graduated with relatively little effort & sometimes wish I had.

And why I became so dissillusioned when I tried "therapy" that following summer---and would (frankly) rather hurl myself off the bridge around the corner than ever subject myself to such crap again!

Now that Chuck's quote has been returned to its proper context---it makes perfect sense...And its funny also, because when I first heard it---I instantly thought of the title of your comment...The perponderance of poets that have killed themselves, the ones that simply wish they had the guts to & the ones who are so entirely enraptured with the whole mess of everything, that it doesn't need to be said---they're dying in small bits each day, constantly. I mean, we all are---that's life & it's all intertwined, but perhaps it just bothers them a tiny bit more than your average person...Not to mention the "death" of poetry itself (have you noticed that each year now, during "National Poetry Month" all you see are a ton of articles about how poetry is OVER)...How touching...I would like to think that it IS only changing---Bring on the revolution...

And as for Chuck---I'm not shocked...I HAVE the record & yes, I've even listened to it!...It's great...But even before then (and it's hard to describe) I SENSED these things about him...Which is WHY I think he kicks ass so incredibly...I haven't known him anywhere near as long as yourself, have spent nowhere near as much time with him, etc...But I do somehow find myself worrying about him occasionally, which might be unneccesary, but it's not like I'm going to analyze it...So MY desire to adopt him probably has a couple more facets to it than the other girls in town...But since I can't cook, I'd make a shitty Mom...

Anyway, that's why it does sort of piss me off when I see people just thinking he's ALL about "Rockin", etc...Yes, he IS---and that IS genuine, but it's like---the more espansive your LIGHT is, the deeper your DARK, and then there's all that GREY in between...My REAL favorite shade, incidentally...

Now, I'm running late for work (again) & I'm feeling like a bit of a butthole for littering Deanne's entries with all of my ramblings...