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By zuulio, Section Diaries Posted on Sat Feb 15th, 2003 at 03:58:48 AM PDT
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or twelve. it amounts to the same thing.
i just wanted too let you know that if something came from space and detroyed everything or i f you were taken away from me sudenly and finally ... i would feel so
lucky that i had this year
to be with you.
i figured today is the best day to escape from here into the rest of our future. dont worry dont lose your nerve. just smile your smile and keep moving and dont worry. you cant screw up. you know where you are.
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summer darkness
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By zuulio, Section Diaries Posted on Thu May 30th, 2002 at 10:20:53 AM PDT
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now its summer and the sun puts vicious shadows all over my town and pinning everything down. but still today theres a chill in my apartment. i close the curtains because i dont want to escape.
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train --> hammer --> hell
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By zuulio, Section Diaries Posted on Mon Apr 15th, 2002 at 07:13:05 PM PDT
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st.valentines was good to me. i became a prince as well as a king, sitting alone in my high chair no more.
but you see time is a nonstop express train and febuary is only a stop on the way to april fools.
i was starting to believe love again, it was showing some promise. i never thought it would.
and just about then i thinkk i smelled something rotten.
and just around the corner i think a hammer waits to strike me down.
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at least
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By zuulio, Section Diaries Posted on Wed Apr 3rd, 2002 at 11:03:48 PM PDT
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im sorta scared lately cuz i dont really know whats going to happen next, see theres a reason i havent been writing diaries for a while, and its because ive been HAPPY. but as usuall i cant seem to just tke that for granted and ride with it, it gives me fits of anxiety instead. somebody who used to confuse me alot is now a very good friend who might move away and that would make me sad, somebody who i hardly noticed before is now very important, and somebody who used to be very important is distant.
and amid all this im as happy as ive ever been in the last four years. im sure ill fuck it up sooner or later -- give me about nine months. i know this about myself. and by then the someone who moved away will have stopßped writing, the someone who is now important will be hiding from me, and the somebody now distant will still be distant.
at least ill still have my wheels and my bottle of pills and the road.
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a boy's best friend
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By zuulio, Section Diaries Posted on Mon Mar 4th, 2002 at 08:55:29 PM PDT
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i sometimes feel like i dont fit in, even if they say they thought of me when i wasn't there, it seems like they really dont have room for me. anyways, ive already split from here... inside.
we should split from here, you and me. theyll always think im pathetic for still trying, for still whispering things theyll never understand, for still being happy to see each other. theyll still thing theyre better for not understanding us, or being able to hear.
but dont be afraid girl. even though i am all alone, and you will be alone with me too, theyll only look at me and cant say anything, but just look, and see that i have something that they dont or cant or refuse to try. they cant ever forget that.
"a boys best friend is his mother or whatever has become his pet.
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a shiny bead or a shock to the system?
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By zuulio, Section Diaries Posted on Sat Feb 23rd, 2002 at 12:52:37 AM PDT
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things are going pretty well now. like stuff doesnt just totally suck anymore. shes still around of course, shes my friend and all and i think were probably going to be able to be friends for a long time. just not really a good time to be together with her i guess. thats cool.
strange though that there needs to have another female pronoun now. i guess from now on when i say she it will be a different she. fuck there are always going to be different shes arent there?
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this might be okay
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By zuulio, Section Diaries Posted on Thu Jan 31st, 2002 at 08:13:52 PM PDT
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"hey boy, stay up and wait for me, okay?"
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its all right, right?
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By zuulio, Section Diaries Posted on Sat Jan 26th, 2002 at 06:12:56 AM PDT
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its alright, right? no, its strong right? finding out someone spent the week laying in bed looking out the window, and just telling them thats tough, ouch, that sucks, your okay right? and that this was the first night theyve been out since that time we talked
it's alright isn't it, to just give them a hug. . . oh yeah im fine... and then continue on?
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